WELL… it has been a very long time to have not kept anyone in the loop on this journey that I had once thought I would write about every day. The REASON? Basically, the long and short of it all is simply I have been very sick over the past few weeks because of a change of in medication and treatment.
You see, at the end of October the specialist found out that I had “DOUBLE TROUBLE” which is basically two concussions not just the original one at the site of the impact that day on the boat. The challenge is, the second one that was left undetected for almost 3 months required a change in medication and treatment. The first two weeks of that change in medications was like having the worst flu ever. In addition to this, was the worst upset stomach from what the doctor described as the equivalent of dumping a bottle of aspirin into an empty stomach every morning.
Because of this it was all I felt like I could do to just make my way through each day. The idea of writing a blog was honestly the last thing from my mind. And to be truthful you probably would have gotten really sick of all the whining.
Today, I am on the front end of week four of a six-week plan that the concussion specialist put together at the end of October. Along with the weekly physio appointments, multiple chiropractor appointments, twice weekly neurofeedback sessions, weekly counselling sessions, and daily flexibility exercises it has been a real journey to say the least.
Tomorrow, I have my follow-up appointment with the concussion specialist (which was supposed to be at the end of week 6 but there was a mix-up between medical offices) and I will find out “WHAT” the future holds. Honestly, I do not know what that even will look like which is a bit unsettling to say the least. A future of unknowns to a person who likes to be ‘in control’ has been one of the great learning curves of this entire journey. A future that has no clear direction can be troubling, but it has also led me to back to the ONE who holds the future in His hands.
Jesus reminds us of this reality in a passage of scripture that has come to be a refuge in the ups and downs of this season I never saw coming:
“That is why I tell you not to worry about everyday life—whether you have enough food and drink, or enough clothes to wear. Isn’t life more than food, and your body more than clothing? 26 Look at the birds. They don’t plant or harvest or store food in barns, for your heavenly Father feeds them. And aren’t you far more valuable to him than they are? 27 Can all your worries add a single moment to your life? 28 “And why worry about your clothing? Look at the lilies of the field and how they grow. They don’t work or make their clothing, 29 yet Solomon in all his glory was not dressed as beautifully as they are. 30 And if God cares so wonderfully for wildflowers that are here today and thrown into the fire tomorrow, he will certainly care for you. Why do you have so little faith? 31 “So don’t worry about these things, saying, ‘What will we eat? What will we drink? What will we wear?’ 32 These things dominate the thoughts of unbelievers, but your heavenly Father already knows all your needs. 33 Seek the Kingdom of God[a] above all else, and live righteously, and he will give you everything you need. 34 “So don’t worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will bring its own worries. Today’s trouble is enough for today.” -Matthew 6:25-34 New Living Translation